009

As a child I tumbled
back and forth between parents
caught in deceit
I swirled through childhood great at excuses
masking half-truths
and what attention was righfully mine.

Swirls accumulate and come to an end
toppling over themselves in a culmination
of lies.

I always dreamed myself happy
I was only good at disguise
A limit reached and the
edge has been breached,
again.

I find myself spilling
but with new eyes and
new worries.

I fear, it's true.
I hate to feel.

008

Silence -
the loudest word unutterd.
Screeching in the night
pleading in the day,
piercing screams whistling through the air.
A throbbing through the mind
sending pulse upon pulse
rushing through the brain.
Throbbing, deafening -

Silence.

007

Your presence
rips through me,
tearing me in half.
I want to
root through my flesh,
digging out all of these
seeds you have planted
within my rotting corpse.

006

I love you like,
these shivers that
run down my spine.
Scittering and trembling,
this ache I feel
when I am
removed from your presence.
My hearts beats
unsteady at your thoughts.
I try and
rid myself of these
feelings for you,
only for you to
place them back.
Burrowing into my heart.

005

In which we give our hearts away
with to much ease.
You find a prince and expect to be
a love of slave.

When truth is your prince,
is little more than an arrant knave;
waiting to steal your all to precious soul away.

Which with your naivete,
has been taken from your grasp,
with little more than a gasp.

Corrupt your voice fades,
into the countless number of those before you,
blurred into a shade;
that were all charmed by
their own fantasies.

004

Pounding, throbbing, madness.
Swirling thoughts, unfocused.
A flutter of wings throught the mind.
One step at a time
Breathe in, out.
Feral look in the eyes
Can't get rid of the wild
Cage you up and tame you,
Just paste on a smile.

003

Arcane words abound,
You bogart these stringed sentences
I craft through stone.
Hanging on the balance of your
scaled impracticalities
I work for the sole purpose of
Your solidarity,
While the rivers sluice through
My property in an endless wave
Of despair waiting on
Your existence.